Do it scared??

I am always scared

Is it just me, or does fear never really leave you, especially when you want to start something new?

I remember the fear of starting this newsletter in my first year of uni. I spoke about it for months. Setting up the account alone took days because I almost gave up.

The fear of:
“Will anyone read this?”
“Will they like it?”
“Does this even make sense?”

Now I’m in my fourth year, and last weekend I did something new again. I carried out a pilot project, The Bloom Project, for an initiative I’ve always wanted to work on.

You’re probably reading this thinking, “oh she’s cool, conqueror of conquests” but na I was scared shitless.

I couldn’t sleep.
I cried.
At some point it looked like everything would fail.

And of course, procrastination showed up too because fear has a funny way of disguising itself as “I’ll do it later.”

Four years apart, and one thing remains the same:
fear still shows up whenever I’m standing in front of something unfamiliar.

But one thing has changed too.

I now have enough memories to know that some of the best things in my life happened because I did it afraid.

Every highlight.
Every achievement.
Every beautiful surprise on the other side of discomfort.

So at any point in time, no matter how daunting it feels, I will choose to face my fears and see what’s waiting for me on the other side.

it’s not an easy ride but I 100% recommend you do the same.

P.S: I’ve been thinking of the frequency of the newsletter and Friday evening seems like a good time. Let’s make it a weekly date, see you next Friday.